then AND now

Me, then: I know, everything happens for a reason.... but, sometimes, I wish I knew what the reason was. I'm too desperate to know why it happened - the way it did.

However, now: I no longer want to find out what the reasons are/were/have been. Not anymore. It's too taxing, too exhausting to keep digging. No matter what's found, there can be no closure that would bring peace and calm. Rather, it's best for me to come to terms with the happenings; what has to happen - happens; I surrender to the grand design. I have also come to terms with the consequences, the reactions, even the spiralling effect and the recurrences; the rage and the agony, or the helplessness at the betrayals - they all are part of the bigger picture. So, I simply let them be. 

Merchant-Ivory Cine Retro

Been lucky to catch a bunch of films from the Merchant-Ivory collection, it brought back the horde of memories associated with many of them which were viewed for the first time on television (be it on Doordarshan or on Star Movies), some of them when I was just a school-going kid.

The Householder (1963)

Shakespeare Wallah (1965)

Bombay Talkie (1970)

The Wild Party (1975)

Roseland (1977)

Hullabaloo Over Georgie and Bonnie's Pictures (1978)

The Europeans (1979)

Jane Austen in Manhattan (1980)

Heat and Dust (1983)

The Bostonians (1984)

A Room with a View (1985)

Maurice (1987)

The Deceivers (1988)

The Perfect Murder (1988)

Mr and Mrs Bridge (1990)

The Ballad of Sad Café (1991)

Howards End (1992)

In Custody (1993)

The Remains of the Day (1993)

Feast of July (1995)

Cotton Mary (1999)

The Golden Bowl (2000)

The Mystic Masseur (2001)

Before the Rains (2007)

'P' for.....

'P' for..... 

prescription pills

passion overkill

procrastinator's slumber 

psycho-babble numbers 

post-void jottings down 

pseudo-somatic frowned upons